Just how do you say goodbye to a mother? I have kept myself absorbed and busy with the task at hand. Making her as comfortable as possible, shopping for little things she needs, cleaning some and constant trips to and stays at the hospital. What I cannot face is to never hear her voice again. To never smell her sweet smell. To never hug her and laugh with her. To not ever again pick up my phone and call her once or twice a day just to check in and see how her day went. Recently, I have spent as many hours as I possibly can right by her side but in day to day life there was rarely a day that went by that I did not talk to her. How do I begin to make those same connections with other people like I have done with my Mom for almost 55 years? I am the only daughter and only grandaughter of two strong women. I am numb almost. Going through the motions. I just do not want her to suffer in any way and I am helpless to fix anything. So I do my best. Fluff pillows, get ice, place aquaphor within her reach and love her.
I am married, teach kindergarten and have three grown sons,two daughter-in-laws and a grand daughter. We just moved this past year and are very busy doing things to the house and yard. The name Tishy came from my niece and just kinda stuck. People at work tend to call me that too after having heard my niece use it.